My Leap into the ABYSS
Dear Jesus, I don't know what I'm doing. But I do know why. And you know everything in between. This is Your vessel.
That was the prayer I uttered feebly to Jesus as I sat before this screen to type the first words of my first page of my first serious blog. I say serious because I tried blogging before, but it turned into more of a diary on line.
This is different.
How? you ask. Ill tell you. I used a big word with this one. "Serious!". And everybody knows when someone uses a big word they mean business. Or at least we thought so when we were kids. Turns out not everybody means what they say by the way they say it.
I used to wish I could go back to that time when I could still pretend something so hard that I would actually believe it. That time in childhood when the mop actually WAS a horse, and I could see it. Where did that pathway go.
It was easier when we didn't know what we didn't know. Guess that is what God was telling Adam when He said not to eat from the tree of the knowledge of good AND evil.
Adam already knew "good".
God was "GOODing" all over the place.
"and it was good..' is everywhere in the creation story. so Adam knew all about good. But what Adam didn't know was evil.
It would have been so much easier if Adam didn't know what he didn't know, forever.
But its not that way.
My best intentions and desires are often left in ashes on the floor because they were burnt out in my thoughts and talking about them. I have written and staged full musical productions. Toured the Middle East with HillSong United, written letters to Mercy Me about how their song helped me thru the death of my best friend. I have Spoken to thousands of women about things so personal to me I haven't even spoken them to my own sister, because I knew it would bring them closer to Jesus. I have written books about my life, and lived solely on the money God provided as I do His pleasure.
I have done all of this and much more.
ALL in my head.
And my life there is wonderful. But my life here, is not so much.
That brings me to where I began, with my prayer "Dear Jesus, I don't know what I'm doing. But I do know why"
I am starting this Blog so that I may bring the life I live in my head out into the world that I live in the flesh. And my world outside is
ON FIRE!!!
But that's not a bad thing.
This is the account of my journey thru the Fire, and the beauty from ashes that only Jesus can bring.
Will you Walk Thru The Fire with me? You may even find the beauty that Jesus has hidden for YOU in the ashes.
That was the prayer I uttered feebly to Jesus as I sat before this screen to type the first words of my first page of my first serious blog. I say serious because I tried blogging before, but it turned into more of a diary on line.
This is different.
How? you ask. Ill tell you. I used a big word with this one. "Serious!". And everybody knows when someone uses a big word they mean business. Or at least we thought so when we were kids. Turns out not everybody means what they say by the way they say it.
I used to wish I could go back to that time when I could still pretend something so hard that I would actually believe it. That time in childhood when the mop actually WAS a horse, and I could see it. Where did that pathway go.
It was easier when we didn't know what we didn't know. Guess that is what God was telling Adam when He said not to eat from the tree of the knowledge of good AND evil.
Adam already knew "good".
God was "GOODing" all over the place.
"and it was good..' is everywhere in the creation story. so Adam knew all about good. But what Adam didn't know was evil.
It would have been so much easier if Adam didn't know what he didn't know, forever.
But its not that way.
My best intentions and desires are often left in ashes on the floor because they were burnt out in my thoughts and talking about them. I have written and staged full musical productions. Toured the Middle East with HillSong United, written letters to Mercy Me about how their song helped me thru the death of my best friend. I have Spoken to thousands of women about things so personal to me I haven't even spoken them to my own sister, because I knew it would bring them closer to Jesus. I have written books about my life, and lived solely on the money God provided as I do His pleasure.
I have done all of this and much more.
ALL in my head.
And my life there is wonderful. But my life here, is not so much.
That brings me to where I began, with my prayer "Dear Jesus, I don't know what I'm doing. But I do know why"
I am starting this Blog so that I may bring the life I live in my head out into the world that I live in the flesh. And my world outside is
ON FIRE!!!
But that's not a bad thing.
This is the account of my journey thru the Fire, and the beauty from ashes that only Jesus can bring.
Will you Walk Thru The Fire with me? You may even find the beauty that Jesus has hidden for YOU in the ashes.